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Wednesday, January 7th, 2009
1:53 am	NEW ACCOUNT! I HAVE A NEW ACCOUNT! Follow me to.... ashcashbgash  This is my new account and I will be using LJ much more to update people with my life.  So, friend me (those few LJ friends that I still have) and I will begin hunting for people who've left me behind...since I dropped off the face of the LJ planet.  :-) xoxo Ash (Comment on this)
1:01 am	Well, happy new year everybody!! (and a survey that Jen better do.....) I hope everyone had a fantastic New Year!!  I rang in the New Year outside of an old church in the middle of a feild, drinking cheap wine and listening to The Who with Bryan...I loved it :)  I've had a great break...aside from the feelings I've been having, as per expressed in my previous blog...things have really been going great.  I've seen a lot of family and I mean A.LOT.  I got to see my cousin who just got back from Afghanistan, my neices and nephew whom I haven't seen in a year, AND my uncle Stine who is just plain BRILLIANT.  I've also spent a lot of time with Bryan's family who, let's face it, are like my home away from home.  It's...wonderful...*sigh* BUT, probably the best part about break (at least the most surprising) was the REUNION between Ms. Jennifer Stewart (aka Baron Von Awesome) and Ms. Claire Jordan (aka Red)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Oh, it was just so great!  I feel like everything in life is right again, you know?  Not that I spent sleepless nights wishing we'd all someday be reunited, but I definately thought about them a lot and wished, so desperately, that we could put everything aside and at least talk to one another - all three of us, in the same room..and I couldn't have asked for anything better...honestly.  They were my girls, you know!?  They were THOSE FRIENDS, the ones you spent all your time with, skipped class with, shared secrets, crushes, heartbreak, stupid moments with...and while nothing can be erased, it's still sooo promising.  I have my "rocks" back....I have a REASON to come home to Raleigh...yes!  January is proving to be a very busy month for me.  I go back to school on the 11th, start classes on the 14th, audition for TARTUFFE on the 18th (17th?), and audition for Katy Brown on the 19th.  THEEEEEN, I take my GRE on the 23rd, then fly off to Chicago on the 31st to audition for graduate schools...PHEW!  I'll keep everyone posted.  Ok, it's time for bed.  Most def.  Hope everyone had a great New Years and I look forward to hearing about all of your lovely 2009 experiences!! Here's a survey!! BAHAHAHAHA... A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question. B. Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you. 001. What are your nicknames? My mom calls me "RuRu".  My brother is "BooBoo".  Bry calls me "Ash" or "A-ster".  Jen/Claire use to call me "Dutchie".  I have a few. 002. How do you style your hair? I usually don't have time to do much...I usually wash it, put some wavy gel stuff in it, then defuse it and it looks nice and "beach waved-like"...or I'll straighten it...for auditions, I like to roll it in hot rollers so that my curls are soft and "put together". 003. What's new in your life right now? A new semester - a final semester...holy cow.  I have 2 auditions coming up very soon, then another one a couple weeks after that, so I'm working on those... I have a new iHome. 004. How many colors are you wearing now? black, yellow, aqua, blue, green... 005. Are you an introvert or extrovert? I think I'm a healthy mix of both. 006. What was the last book you read? I read some of "Leaves of Grass"...but the last book I completed was Stella Adler's acting book...I read a lot of plays...just read TARTUFFE...yeah... 007. Do you nap a lot? When I can, man...when I can... 008. If the person you secretly like is already taken, what would you do? Nothing.  Let everything work out the way it's supposed to...trust me on this one, folks. 009. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days? Just the usual worrying about "what's next"...but I'm actually pretty happy these days. 010. What's your favorite dessert? Cheesecake, cookies, or ice cream...ALL THREE! yum! 011. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 15-20 minutes...depending on how tired I am...I move faster if I'm awake...like a speeding bullet. 012. What websites do you visit daily? The usual...Fbook, Myspace, LJ, gmail, and CNN 013. What classes are you taking right now? And if you're not in school any more, what's your job? I'll be taking (ready for this?): Photography, Modern dance, Dance ensemble, Tap II, voice lesson, BodyAct, Alexander Technique....yeees 014. Do you like to clean? Sometimes. Rarely. 015. What's the last song that got stuck in your head? I don't know.  I just forgot.  Thanks a lot, LJ. 016. What's the last movie you saw? Cabin Fever........ 017. What's better: eternal love or memorable love? Oh lord...ETERNAL.  Memorable is great, but let's move foreward, shall we? 018. What color do you look best in? Really all colors...not to be vain, but with my skin tone and hair, most bright colors look very nice on me.  019. What is the most beautiful place you've ever been to? Either Stockbridge, MA (it was just...very different from any mountain-y town that I've ever been to) or the Pacific Northwest 020. What are you most looking forward to in the coming month? Auditions, auditions, and more auditions!! It's sick, but I friggen JONES  for auditions!! WOOOOOO! Now for the tags! Oh lord...no one I know will do this.........I wanna tag Jen...dooooo it, Jen, dooooo IT!! GO!  I'll love you forever and make out with you and your wildly contagious "rash"...gross. Current Mood: chipper (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 31st, 2008
11:59 am	it's funny. life, that is. i'm home for the 4th christmas since "leaving home" and it doesn't get any easier with my parents.  i hate the whole cliched life most young girls lead - they don't get along with their parents which turns to angst and rebellion and blah blah blah...and i don't know why i've resorted to writing in my livejournal, which i've virtually stopped using...but alas, here i am. it's taken so much to get me to where i am.  i can see something that looks like happiness and it's right within my reach.  usually, i'm the one standing in the way of that happiness, i figure out why, then i step out of the way and allow myself the solitude that i deserve after 21 years of on and off again depression and anxiety.  but when i'm home, it's sooo different.  i'm surrounded by people with no desire to be happy and i don't understand that anymore. . i can't believe i lived here.  i mean, i can.  it explains a lot, now that i've gone out there and been around people that know how to deal with life.  i don't know how to deal with life right now.  i'm working on it, but it takes time.  what i'm saying is....and this is SO BAD...do you ever wonder if you really love your parents?  god i'm a horrible person...but i don't know if i do.  i try to talk to my mom and dad about things and they put a wall up.  they don't want to hear it, but they need to.  how can you love someone if they're not open to you?  is it possible to love someone, an emotion that i associate with the heart and soul, when you can't see the other person's heart and soul. i spent my whole life listening to arguements, hearing my mother badger my father about mistakes he made that she'll never forgive him for, and i never said anything.  i went numb and then it all exploded.  is that my fault?  i'm trying so hard not to blame them, but honestly...i can't help but notice a drastic change in my personality when i'm in raleigh and when i'm home in greensboro. i started getting therapy last semester and it's been so wonderful.  i didn't know i was allowed to forgive myself for mistakes i've made...again, the family, not so forgiving.  and honestly, i didn't realize my childhood affected me as much as it did until i actually opened up my heart and started talking about it.  i mean, my god, a whole WORLD opened up to me....reasons why it's so hard for me to trust men, trust myself, trust ANYONE, let things go, why i cut my arms, why i made myself throw up for 2 years, why, why, why...my parents wanted me to talk to someone, but now that i have, they're upset that they might have done something to cause whatever "problems" i have.  i don't resent them for being the way that i am, i just wish they'd figure out a way to be happy.  because i'm constantly working on myself and at the end of the day, i'm proud of who i've become.  i'm smart, pretty, i have a good heart, a great boyfriend and best friend, and i'm passionate about life and everything that it has to offer...sincerely, that's how i feel.  when i come home, none of that seems to matter.  this place is like a dark hole and it's so sad.  there are so many scars that want to heal over, but no one is letting them.  i try so hard to say what i feel, but they're both sensitive, that they refuse to listen.  instead, they put up a wall so high, that i can't even see the sky anymore...i have no hope, whatsoever.  i've suggested counciling to my mom, but she won't do it unless my dad does...and at this point, she just needs to take care of herself.  she's so unhappy. at this point, i'm glad i'm graduating.  i'm glad i'm doing something with my life and with what i've worked so hard on for the past 4 years. i'm happy to have a career and have a family.  i want to instill so many values in my children that i weren't instilled in me.  i want my children to mess up every single day and know that it's ok.  i never want them to hear me screaming and yelling.  i just want them to be happy and know how important happiness is.  i didn't know how important happiness was until i was around people who were.  it was like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders...people can just....be happy?  what?  they can let go of issues from the past, forgive one another, and live their life?  once i learned that, baby, there was no stopping me.......until, that is, i come back to raleigh. i know that life is hard and situations like this are put in front of us for a reason.  i'll learn from this...i guess i just needed to get this out.  without someone putting a wall up or interrupting me...without yelling or screaming.  and maybe people will actually read this and actually hear me.  sometimes, i just need to be heard.  it took me so long to believe that the thoughts in my head were important enough to be shared. i never want to think that my mind is irrelevent. ugh...happy new years everyone!  i mean that from the bottom of my heart - make it a good one!  xo, ash (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 7th, 2008
4:20 pm	I enjoy being a senior.  I like finding monologues and researching my future...it provides me with a sense of hope and incentive to get out of Greensboro...it's time. Ceramics is surprisingly stressful for me.  I have ideas of beautiful projects in my head, but when they work its way out onto the clay, it just looks ridiculous. My senior class is great.  We're trying to boost departmental morale with fun little projects here and there including a "big sister/brother, little sister/brother" deal where each of us (there are only 5 senior actors) gets assigned 4 or 5 underclassmen and they can come to us whenever they need to talk to someone that's kind of in the same boat. We're also starting something called a Senior Showcase which will consists of us sharing our art with the department - things that we've found to be individually challenging over the course of our 4 years...singing, dancing, monologues, combat, mime, you name it...and it's purely for the department.  It'll be one night, with each of us getting...maybe 20 minutes?  Or 5 nights...we haven't worked out the kinks yet. They always have to watch senior packages, which is great...but then seniors go away to auditions and you don't really see much of them again...this showcase will be FOR our fellow actors.  I think it's so important to share bravery with one another...and who knows, maybe it will be continued for years to come.  OH! And, we've also been asked to re-write the Theatre Department Handbook, so that's also currently underway.  It's very exciting to feel like you're really leaving your mark somewhere...I can't believe I'm a senior. I'm almost positive I want to go to graduate school.  I've been researching like crazy and so far, I'm extremely interested in the following: UWash Seattle, University of Alabama, FSU/Osolo Conservatory, and University of Texas, Austin. I'm also almost positive I want to go back to Barter...it's a bit of a dilema. I know things will work out the way they're supposed WHEN they're supposed to...but for now, I'm anxious. Not be outshined by grad school and Barter, I've also been researching other professional theatres that might be fun...I don't have a "top five" list yet, but I'm slowly working on it.  I love Barter...can I just ask all of them if they're just like Barter?  That probably isn't a smart thing to do. Bryan, Carson, and I are going to Arkansas from Saturday until Tuesday to visit PATRICE!! I'm sooooo excited!  It's been TOO LONG!  I love road trips... I also might be driving out to Utah with Justin, Ben, and Nikki at the beginning of January...this is just what I've heard...Justin says he can find us $100 plane tickets from Vegas to Greensboro - if so, count me in. I have to go choreograph now...I love choreography, by the way.  I'm finding that all of my experience in modern is helping A LOT.  It comes relatively easy to me, which I never expected.  I think I want to do some stuff for labs and maybe even the Spring "dance concert" next semester...which is going to be a sight specific showcase - how cool is that?  Okay, I'm really done now.  Hope everyone is well. xoAsh (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 30th, 2008
6:01 pm	Blessed be those who have a "life" but still don't REALLY have one.   (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 7th, 2008
9:23 pm	Why not? So, it's senior year...WOAH, how did I become a senior? Oh yeah, all those classes... Anyway, things @ GC are great so far this year!  There is overwhelming surge of positivity in the department this year.  The new freshmen kick ass and, overall, people just seem calmer and happier.  I like it.  It reminds me of Barter.  We've had auditions for INTO THE WOODS all weekend and everyone has been SO supportive of one another...YES!  To be honest, I was nervous about coming back to school after being at Barter...people talk about Barter like it's Heaven on earth and it's perfect.  No place is perfect and I don't know anything about Heaven, but what I do know is - it's the happiest I've ever been; emotionally, spiritually, artistically, fuck, even physically...so, naturally, to return to a place that fosters a certain amount of resentment (ya know, shit happens) after being in a place where I feel like I found myself and fell in love with myself....well, I thought it would be much harder.  But things have changed at ye olde GC.  It feels safer here than it use to.  And maybe it was my perception, though I don't think that's entirely it.  I know why it's changed, but that's not important anymore. I'm so proud of myself...I held my own in an MUSICAL audition.  Last year, I could barely make it through my audition song without shaking and feeling like I was going to faint.  And thanks to Barter and the lovely Hannah Ingram, singing doesn't scare me anymore.  If anything, I know it's a challenge, I know I haven't had a lot of training and I know it's what I have to continue to work on.  I've got a great voice teacher this year and a lot of great oppurtunities to improve.  And, really, that's all I could ever ask for - a chance to learn. That's all I really wanted to talk about.  This is gonna be a great year.  I miss Patrice, Justin, and Nikki like ALL THE TIME.  It's kinda weird not having them around, but it's nice to be a senior.  It's nice to feel like I'm ready to start looking for professional jobs and grad school oppurtunities...I didn't think I'd be ready, but I am.  Let's do it!  (Comment on this)
Friday, July 25th, 2008
12:06 am	http://bartertheatre.com/shows/show_detail.php?show_id=34 (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 11th, 2008
3:16 pm	I just realized that I haven't updated about Barter!! I LOVE IT HERE!!   That's really all I have time to say.   But I'm playing "Sofia" in SLEEPING BEAUTY, "Witch" in FROG PRINCE and "Old Whiskers, the Cat" in THE BREMENTOWN MUSICIANS (I get to sing and scratch on a washboard!) I also think I want to live in the VA mountains for the rest of my life - even if I don't work at the Barter, this place soothes my soul. Okay, I gotta go to rehearsal, but hopefully I'll update again?  If not, I hope everyone has a fantastic summer!   (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 10th, 2008
12:16 pm	The best thing in the world is when you realize that you're not perfect and it's actually okay.  That people will love and respect you just for trying.   I pledge from here on out to work as hard as humanly possible. To strive for excelence and enjoy the journey...but more than anything, to allow myself to love and be loved in return.  Moulin Rouge really is a fucking great movie.  I also pledge to spend more time outside with my scripts.  Before I know it, I'll be back in the city wising I could lay in a hammock in the middle of the mountains with nothing but my iPod.  I need to enjoy it while I can.  And sleep.  I pledge to sleep. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 1st, 2008
7:53 pm	GC Theatre 2008-2009 Season: - Blues For An Alabama Sky - Into the Woods - Sea Scapes with Stars and Dancers - Dog Sees God - Tartuffe So, basically, next year is going to be awesome.  Certain people are leaving who need to leave and I'm thankful that next year will be free of all awkwardness and grudges!  Wooo for maturity!  I'm going to miss Patrice, Justin, and Nikki SO much.  I think I've successfully convinced myself that they're not graduating.  Especially Patrice. I don't know where I would have been this year without her.   I had a great evaluation and all my hard work this semester paid off.  All of my teachers had positive things to say and everyone was really impressed with our acting 6 project. I'm extremly proud of my class. We all just work so well together.  I'm soooo ready to get to Barter and kick some serious ass!  Man, next year is gonna be great.  (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, March 14th, 2008
9:28 pm	i got into barter!  i'm so happy.  SO happy.  SO ready to get out of here for three months and ACT.   they found housing, so i don't have to find my own housing AND i don't have to pay ANYTHING....love ya BTF, but thank god.  i can't do that to my parents again.  i'll be getting paid and i'll be acting in at least two childrens' shows.  if you want something, NEVER EVER EVER be afraid to go for it.  ever.  after 2 years of hoping to go to barter, i'm finally going to be a barter player...it still hasn't sunk in, so maybe if i type it out, it will...nope....still hasn't.   did i mention how happy i am?  because i am.   life is so sweet.  if you work hard, you get what you deserve and i truely believe that now more than ever.  i don't mean to keep going on and on and on, but i haven't been this happy with every aspect of my life since last summer.  i feel so accomplished just in being who i am and not being afraid of it.  that's hard to do when you feel like you're judged for being yourself.  and having bryan around through all of this has been sooo amazing.  he's such a great person.  he's been a barter player, so he knows how much it means to me to get this job and having him there with me through the whole process has been...i can't even think of the words.  really.  i'm the luckiest girl in the world...not because of the gifts i have, but because i'm FINALLY learning how to not take things for granted.  i'm sure that sounds awful, but i've never appreciated anything i have.  i thought i'd lost so much this year..."friendships", opportunities...but it was only to make way for even more amazing friendships and even better opportunities....THE opportunity.  the one that i thought i'd never get because i didn't think i deserved it.  well, forget that! i deserve it and i can't wait to take it for all its worth!  i've found my little place in life - in theatre, in love, in society, in humanity in general...and it feels so nice.    (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 15th, 2008
3:34 am	Happy Valentine's Day!...what a nice holiday.  I remember growing up, my mom and dad always made a big to do about Valentine's Day, so even when I didn't have a boyfriend, I never hated it.  I always felt very loved.  This year, my mom and dad sent me a package!  I took lots of pics over the summer @ BTF and there were two in particular that I loved - one of Times Square at night and one of a little kid buying a balloon in Central Park.  Well, for V-Day, my mom blew them up and mailed them to me!  They're now posted on my wall.  Sweet, eh?  Bryan bought me organic shampoo/conditioner that I'd had my eye on as well as some organic face wash I'd been looking at.  AND, tomorrow, for the first time in WEEKS, I have the entire afternoon/evening off!  YES!  Coincidentally, Sunday is our 6 month anniversary, so tomorrow night, Bryan is taking me out to Kabuto. :-) Fiddler opens next week...and closes...I'm more excited about the ladder.  Nothing against the show, but I haven't been this exhausted from one show since I've been at GC.  It even tops Uncle Vanya.  I'm run down, tired all the time, irritable....we've been rehearsing it since October and it's just time for it to be over.  It snowed yesterday! HUGE flakes that immediately stuck to the ground.  So, Valentine's Day was a winter wonderland.  There was probably about 3 inches on the ground last night.  I love unexpected snow.  My cousin, Phillip has been in Afghanistan since July.  He had one month off and he came to visit him.  He's my favorite.  I'm so glad that I'm getting closer to my family. It only took twenty years. He's really cool....he went back last week or so for another 6 months.  I've decided I'm joining the Peace Corps when I graduate.   And I'm getting another tattoo, plus my cartlidge peirced...did I even spell that right?  And if I didn't, should I really be getting it peirced? As cool as tats and peircings are, they're not as cool as the Peace Corps. My Fiddler costume had to be taken in 3 inches. That's impressive. I like it when you lose weight without killing yourself....I love working out, it's become my one guaranteed stress free moment.  And I'm loving all the healthy shit I'm eating.  It makes my body feel so...sufficient.  Okay, well I'm going to bed.  Life is very good.  Very balanced.  I'm ready for Spring Break....well, the 3 days I have of Spring Break before I head to Tennessee for SETC... Okay.  Goodnight. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 24th, 2008
8:50 pm	Things always work out.  If you wait long enough, things will fall into place like they're supposed to.  These past two days have made me so happy.  Now I'm going to go make a delicious dinner and eat birthday cake ice cream.  (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 19th, 2007
9:44 pm	Bart and Balance Meet Bart...to be purchased in January. Meet my tattoo design...to be gotten on Dec. 26...it's the sun sign for Libra and it means "balance" - a concept that has a lot of personal meaning to me... Holler. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 28th, 2007
7:16 pm	I love fall...could it be any more beautiful?  I'm not sure it could.  Tonight, I called my parents to tell them that I wanted a tattoo for Christmas and they said YES.  I finally know what I want to get and where and I'm STOKED.  My final scenes are coming along really nicely.  They feel good and Robin really likes my work.   I've gone GREEN!  It's so much fun.  Ignore the fact that it's a stupid "fad" and think about the fact that you really could make a difference by turning off lights, shutting down computers, carrying nalgenes instead of buying bottled water, not buying plastic utensils, recycling...I mean, who can't RECYCLE?  It's fun and I'm enjoying my new enviornmental endeavor.  Everyday I'm learning something new (and really easy) that I can do to "be green" and it's stuff I've always done, stuff that makes a lot of sense, and a lot of it comes down to minimalizing your lifestyle. Getting the most out of the things that are given to you. Not using things when you don't need them.  I never thought I could be so happy in my life.  Even when things are super stressful, I feel like I have this constant underlying feeling of peacefullness and contentment.  I owe a lot (if not all) of that to Bryan and this amazing thing that's formed between the two of us.  Seriously, I never thought I'd ever feel like this or be so lucky. And it's hard to let yourself be happy and not think that it's all going to end horribly or that you don't deserve it...but once you just kind of let it hit you, it's soooo great.  I can talk to him for hours upon hours about everything. I feel like I've met "the one"...no you're not cordially invited to my June wedding...I just feel really blissful all the time. It never goes away or gets boring or routine - GOD I HATE ROUTINE. Routine is awful.  I talked to Claire the other day via Myspace. I had an urge to message her since we haven't talked in, probably a year, and she messaged me back and we're going to meet up over the Holidays...I've missed her a lot.  I think about her a lot and it's just time.  Time to let go of stupid shit.  After what happened to me this summer, I can't believe I was so quick to judge Claire and write her off.  It feels good to grow.  To feel like a grown ass woman.   Not to end this entry on a downer, but yours truly has developed a Urinary Tract Infection...perfect right?  I researched it and it's appearently very common among women my age and blah blah blah. Talked to Bryan's mom who's a nurse and basically, I've been drinking gallons upon gallons of water and Cranberry Juice and eating lots of yogurt...I feel better and all this stuff seems to be working, but home girl CANNOT be sick right now.   The following is all due by MONDAY: - 2 Religion papers - 1 Acting V paper - 1 Acting V project - 1 Acting V book Review - 2 Acting Scenes - 1 Acting the Camera Scene - 1 10 page paper on George Bernard Shaw for Theatre History Oh and we're already starting Fiddler run throughs. I'm looking into the Barter Theatre next summer...up in Abingdon, VA.  It's a very prestigious theatre. I auditioned with them last summer, had an interview, and was told I'd be a really good candidate for their summer apprenticeship.  Plus, Gray Simons (from BTF) use to work at the Barter and has written reccomendations for past BTF apprenti, so I'm going to email him.  Bryan is also going to email Katy Brown (head of the Barter Players) and tell her that I'm interested...he worked there the summer after our freshman year. Plus, I'm going to email her again to let her know I'm interested....so, basically, I'm going to beg and gravel. They only take 4 apprentices every summer, usually, and only 1 girl...soooo, yeah.  It'll be an adventure!   Oh and I got passed on at NCTC this year!...however, I didn't hear them call time - because my monologue has never gone over time - so i automatically got 3 points deducted and with the penalty, I didn't make a high enough score to get passed on.  That was pretty hard to deal with, but the judges all had really nice comments and so did Robin, so I don't feel like absolutley nothing was accomplished.  Alright, I'm gonna get to work...I just had the urge to update.  Hope everyone had a nice break! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 7th, 2007
9:38 pm	soooo life  life is good. life is busy. we just started rehearsal for "fiddler" and it's going well. the new musical director is fierce. i like her a lot.  i'm kicking ass in classes. i think i've finally found a balance between getting all my theatre work done AND getting my gen ed homework done. it only took me 2 years, but who's counting? we got assigned our final scenes in acting v...and for the 5th semester in a row (yes, that's every semester) i'm with bryan! i was concerned that robin would be a little hesitant letting us work together now, but i guess she's cool with it which is good because we've always worked well together. AND our characters are confessing their love to one another. AND she gave us a scene from "man and superman" which is amazing because i'm a little obsessed with george bernard shaw these days. and since our class has an odd number of people this year, i'm also doing another scene from "top girls" with sara and i get to speak with a british accent. i love final scenes.  i've been eating really well lately. i love silk soy milk. and lean cuisines....maybe the latter isn't entirely helpful, but it's handy when i don't get time to eat lunch.  nctc is next week. wish me luck!  it's cold now! it feels like it did every night in the berkshires and i LOVE IT. i've missed it so much. new england love man, new england love...i'm definately making my "home" there some day.  what else, what else...my hair is really long...and i can't cut it until february, so that'll be fun... lean cuisine's done! hope everyone is doing well :-) oh! and i saw heather j, heather k, and lauren on tate street...it was the first time in 2 years i've ever seen them around gboro...it was kinda special (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 18th, 2007
9:48 pm	today has been sooo fun.  i slept until 5 - not fun - i woke up with a migraine. but i do feel well rested, so that's a plus.  rehearsal was great. i have trouble playing "sexy" and i've really been working on that this year - both in blood wedding and in my scenes for acting class - and tonight, robin told me how much better i had gotten. she said i was very sexy and powerful and she was very proud of me. it's nice to hear that you've accomplished something that you thought would be so hard.  ghost hunters are here! yes, the ghost hunters from the sci fi channel - I'M SO PUMPED! they're on our stage right now talking to the students about what they do and then after midnight, they're going to search main building. hot or what? tonight i'm going to go lay on front campus with bryan. i love doing that. i've never loved being outdoors as much as i do when i'm with him. i just feel like such a free spirit. he makes me so happy.  enough about that, i'll spare you :-)  until next time,  ashley (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 11th, 2007
11:45 pm	I don't want to write in LJ anymore...I'm kind of tired of it, I think. I will say that I got into a car accident on Wednesday and had my first experience with a stretcher. Not comfortable in the slightest. I'm okay, just a cut and some soreness. My Shakespeare teacher and another actress in the company happened to be driving by and saw the accident, so they helped me and my friend. The guy took full responsibility...he "T-boned" us going 40mph coming out of a porn store in Pittsfeild. 7 of our apprenti friends came to see us in the hospital.  Can I just say that some of the friends I've made here can go down in the books as being some of the most wonderful people in the world. Hands down. Everyone has been really supportive and understanding so far as work goes...apart from a dull headache, I feel a lot better. It was fucking scary as hell though. My windows were down, thank God, but the side mirror popped right off and hit my friend in the eye. She couldn't even get it open for 15 minutes. People are idiots. Summer is almost over. Everyone from GC is leaving next week and then me, the other Mrs. Warren's girls and some people from the other cast will be here for a couple more weeks. I'm ready to head back. This has been an amazing experience, but I'm ready to see my parents again, eat some good food, and feel REAL summer weather. None of the 50 degree shit...even though it's been rull nice straightening my hair and having it stay straight. Mrs. Warren's opens next Friday, then we have the final opening night party of the summer...only this time, I'm in the show muthafuckaaaaaaa!  Anyway, that's that.  Life is life and I'm departing from LJ...until I have something profoundly interesting to say in the future. Hope everyone's summer has been amazing! Good luck next semester :-) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 4th, 2007
5:08 pm	Rehearsals from Mrs. Warren's Professions are going well. I had my costume fitting today and I'm back in a corset, which is fun, right? The weather here is phenomenal. The way the sun falls here is just different. It doesn't look like summer - unbearably bright and whatnot, do you know what I mean? It looks like fall...I guess it's all the trees. It's been a tad humid, but still nothing compared to NC. I've finally started feeling a little homesick...just a tad.  I went to NYC this past week on my day off with some friends and it was quite an adventure. We got to NYC around 10:30am and walked all over the place...literally, we walked all over Manhattan from Grand Central station down to Battery park to see the statue of liberty. Needless to say, around 11:25, when the last train left, we were ready to get home. However, appearently the schedule was messed up and the last train left at 10. Yeah, we were definately stuck in NYC. Luckily, the perk of being a struggling actor means friends who have other struggling actor friends in the city...well, in Harlem. We took a cab about 15 minutes to Harlem and spent the night sprawled out in the living room of my friend's actor buddy...fell asleep about 2am, had to catch the subway at 4:30 to get back to Grand Central to catch a 6:03 train back to Wasaic, NY. We made it just in time to get back for our Suzuki class and were completely prepared to do Suzuki on 2 hours of sleep when Gray announces that instead of doing Suzuki, he was taking us on a hike...A HIKE. so, after having trecked all over Manhattan all day, I climbed a mountain. Granted, it was beautiful, but I felt like I was about to die in more ways than one. So, that was fun...definately an experience. I can't say I was ever unhappy...inconvenienced and sore, but never unhappy :-) I've decided that I'm going to start studying photography. I love taking pictures, always have, and I need a couple of side jobs, so why not?  Being up here in this beautiful place has inspired me beyond belief. I could spend hours just walking around and taking pictures...I'm excited! New chapter, yay!  Okay, I think I'm done...I guess. I don't really know what else to say. There's plenty to say, but I'm sleepy, I think I might take a nap before going to the lake. BYE. (Comment on this)
Friday, July 20th, 2007
6:41 pm	so, yay good news! they worked it out so that i can stay until sept. 2nd and be in MRS WARREN'S PROFESSION!!!! i danced, really i did. i danced in the parking lot like a fool, but it felt soooo good.  i'm so incredibly excited to work on a main stage show at the berkshire theatre festival! granted, i'm sure it's a small role....a VERY small role...and yet, i'm soooo effing stoked!  my summer is now officially 2 weeks longer! yay! i start rehearsals on monday :-)  i sound like an idiot!  you should have seen my dance moves.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGHHHHH. (1 Comment |Comment on this)